what to say

and what not to say?

there are things that i'd like to tell certain people... reasons why i do things or why i make the decisions that i make. but when i take the next step and think about what sort of response i may get from them, it helps me decide whether or not i should open my mouth. if i think i might make someone feel bad or feel guilty, no matter how little chance that may happen, i won't explain myself. i rather have them be upset at me, yell at me, and i'll take the blame, instead of explaining to them how I feel.

i know that might sound stupid and self-destructive, but why complicate things and add fuel to the fire?