feeling a little blah today

i'm feeling a little blah today... not my usual self at all.

i went for a consultation with a doctor and was quoted $6k... :(
so i'm feeling a little sad because well... its a lot of money...
for something that i've always wanted to do.
i've been self conscious about it ever since i was little...

so now... well, i'm thinking i probably can't afford to do it...
:(