don't piss me off
someone royally pissed me off by offending me tonite.
i've been away from home since i was 19. i had to deal with all my ups (new jobs) and downs (2 layoffs), and the good (friends who've become family) and the bad (P&VA relationships, 20 stitches and chronic pain from a serious car accident, no place to live in a foreign country, no job at 2 weeks prior to the government kicking me out of the country, moving residences 16 times, 2 floods, 1 smoke incident).
i know what its like to be at the bottom of the pile. i've worked my ass off to get my head above water time and time again. i know what its like to tread water -- i've been doing it for the past 10 years.
tonite, someone made a judgement based on my reaction to nerves. he literally accused me of wanting to give up, or not wanting something bad enough to work for it.
i have worked so DAMN hard with no family or relatives to help me out. all i know is hard work.
i said one thing that was opposite of my intentions, but it was just a reaction to nerves. he literally thought i meant it. i'm upset -- not at him (ok maybe i was, but not anymore). i'm upset not only because he assumed that i wanted to give up, but because it made me realize that he doesn't know me well enough to know it was just a reaction and nothing more.
this is something i hold close to my heart. to fight so long and then have someone make an assumption based on one thing i said, really hurt me...
