My childhood dreams

A few weeks ago, I clicked on a link from Facebook to an Oprah Winfrey clip of Professor Randy Pausch's condensed version of his last lecture.

I was so touched by the story that I immediately searched for his website and watched the full version...

It got me thinking about my childhood dreams...

1) compete in the Olympics in figure skating
2) be an actress
3) make my mom and dad extremely happy
4) be famous for something I had achieved

The first one I don't think I can achieve anymore as I'm probably too old to compete. I'm not skating as much as I used to, so that probably doesn't help either. I guess my age is my brick wall. As for the rest of them... maybe I just need a game plan...

Are we really all alone?

We have family, friends, acquaintances... so really are we ever alone? But how many of those members of your family, your friends, or even your acquaintances will stay by your side through thick and thin, good and bad?

It's really hard to find a good friend who'd do that. Family aside, having 1 good friend who will love you for who and what you are, is hard to find I'm finding.

I've been here for almost 10 months now, and haven't had much luck finding a really good pal. And at times when I feel lonely, sad, defeated, and beaten, it would be nice to have someone (besides family) there for me -- especially when your loved one isn't emotionally available...

People in HK

... are SO extremely RUDE...

"Beauty is fleeting, but a rent-controlled apartment is forever..."

So what's with the guys in HK who just date stewardesses? You've got modelizers -- guys who only date models. But in HK, they're not modelizers, but stewardess-izers :P

I can't even pronounce that.

I guess that's perfect. No real threat of commitment from them, as they're always flying around the world. Is that why guys go for them, besides the fact that they are (not all mind you) beautiful. Or is it about validation?

Or is it just because they like to be around beautiful things?

"Have you ever been in love?"

It's a Saturday afternoon and I just spent a couple of hours trying to figure out how I can play the SATC complete series on my mac. To my dismay it seems that I absolutely can't without changing the region code blah blah blah. So I found a work-a-round which involves a PC (ick), a friend's advice, and an external HD and now I'm comfortably watching the first season...

And if you've ever watched SATC, you'll know where the title of this blog came from.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not a major SATC freak... in fact I probably missed 90% of the SATC episodes. Not having a TV pretty much took me out of those giggly conversations at school. It ran for a total of 6 years and I hardly had a chance to watch it...

But now that SATC the movie is out, and I have access to the complete series, I thought it's time to get caught up :P

So that brings me to the real reason I'm blogging after what... 9 months :P and SATC got me thinking about this one question... have I ever been in love?

I think I have... once a long long LONG time ago. But now looking back, it wasn't love at first sight like you hear in fairy tales. I actually didn't think much of him at first and I guess you could say he grew on me and I think his love for me ran me right over -- like a mini-bus on the streets of HK.

The relationship didn't turn out great. In fact it went the opposite direction and at the end of the roller coaster ride, when the tornado passed and the black rain warning was lifted, I found myself empty as a shell wearing my favourite BCBG shoes :P

I got back on my feet and thought to myself.. that can't be real true love. So if that wasn't love, then what was it? Maybe I wanted to believe it was something when it really wasn't.

Well, it felt like love but now that I know it wasn't, will I know what love is when (or if) cupid throws it at me? And if he has already, did I just let it pass me by? Where is he anyways?